A new paradigm for being?

Like many post-war babies, I grew up in an era of new prosperity and expanding awareness. My parents did what they thought was best for me and raised me as a good Roman Catholic boy; initiation into the priesthood was even on the cards at one point!

Around 13 years old, though, I started to question the veracity and relevance of the God I had been given: the model didn’t seem to fit. This wasn’t just peer pressure, discovering rock and roll or noticing the opposite sex: there was something about Catholicism that didn’t sit right with me as a way to run one’s life in the 20th century.

I focussed on science at school and studied electronics at university so that, by the time I started proper employment, my world view had completely changed; I had a new God – the ‘God of Science’. The model of the Universe, life and evolution could all be explained by the ‘Big BangTheory’, plus a sprinkling of probability and a soup of organic molecules, catalysed by lightening, that stewed for a few billion years.

The clockwork universe with its mute creator had pulled off a pretty neat trick of making sentient star dust; the need to pay lip service to a deity didn’t feature. Anyway, at the time it also sounded pretty trendy to call yourself an agnostic humanist and hedge your bets at the same time.

As corporate life mutated into building and running my own business, the ‘God of Commerce’ became my driver. Success, fame, money and having the latest gadgets were the order of the day and I was even responsible for designing some of them too!

Now, I have always taken things apart to see how they worked and, to my parents’ chagrin, not always putting them successfully back together again. In my early 40’s, I had a Rieki healing session. Up to that point, I may have thought that ‘The Chakras’ could have been just a good name for a rock band. What happened on that day surprised me and caused me to re-evaluate everything.

Not only did healing occur but I experienced a whole etheric-body vibration that I still remember vividly. My Reiki healer had even said at the time: “This is weird, Tom!” It had never happened to her in all her years of healing and it wasn’t just a subjective experience.

What I had experienced that day led me to challenge my new gods of science and commerce; I had found something new to take apart, analyse and understand.

My journey since then has involved studying esoteric knowledge, quantum physics, psychology, cosmology and evolution … as well as becoming a Reiki healer myself and integrating the three minds*. All of this has led me to realise that there was another God lurking in the shadows – one that had been hijacked by the major world religions and dressed up in dogma and that I had largely forgotten – the ‘I AM’ God in each of us.

Ironically, what brought this realisation on fully was going see Richard Dawkins, whose writing I had greatly admired at that time, and who was talking about his latest book – ‘The God Delusion’. What I experienced that day was a really intelligent man having an easy pop at traditional religion, amusingly, presented from behind a lectern as if he was giving a sermon from a pulpit! It dawned on me that his, and my, ‘God of Science’ was no less prone to dogma and blind faith than the one he was decrying. I walked out with more questions to answer.

It is obvious, to me, that the gods of all the different religions must be one and the same. In the same way, it occurred to me that the new gods of science and commerce would have to merge and embrace the old gods and their esoteric significance. The latter can no longer be kept solely in the domain of clerics, not least because it could be hard-wired into our DNA.

Equally, the spiritually inclined would need to embrace the new science. I hear people speak of “the new energies” and “the new frequencies of golden blue light” and while I understand that it’s sometimes difficult to explain the unexplainable, this kind of talk may need to find a common vocabulary with that of the n-dimensional quantum physicists. The lack of integration could just generate alienation and polarisation again.

It appears that the God of Science can’t explain what large swathes of DNA, or what most of the brain, is for and it also appears that 90% or more of the Universe is hidden in some form of ‘dark’ energy or ‘dark’ matter. Admittedly it has taken the scientific approach to be able to even ask these questions but is it possible that the answers may not be found because science could be looking in entirely the wrong place?

While it is admirable to aim for a ‘Grand Unified Theory’, the search could be fruitless unless the seekers incorporate Consciousness into the model, rather than leaving it a mere epiphenomenon of it.

At least that’s my ‘GUT’ feeling.


Originally published in Paradigm Shift

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